Ten Bulls 1. The Search for the Bull

TheSearchForTheBull

Why do we search? What are we looking for?

Is there a recognition, however hidden, that something is missing?

But what? Is it happiness? Peace? Meaning? Wholeness? God?

Something is missing, and we can itch with a desire to find; a desire that grasps and tests, that consumes and moves on.

How has this happened?

We live in a divided state, somehow estranged and yet somehow ourselves.

The desire is to find ourselves. But, who am I?

Notice the herdsman: feet pointing one way, head looking the other.

We are divided; self-consciousness is separate from consciousness.

Our head is pointing in the wrong direction. How can we possibly see where we are going?

The two feet are meditation and daily life. With these we walk on our way; sometimes restless, sometimes listless, sometimes happy, and somehow searching.

On we go into the experience of our own division, into the ways in which we live with true nature forgotten.

On this path of life, we live out of habits and attitudes that seem to hinder. We resist people and happenings that could be somehow good for us. What’s going on?

Metanoia: change your mind, turn your head. Be attentive to your feet.

Let the grace in walking turn your head.

About Andrew

I am journeying through life practicing a Christian spirituality. I am also an Oblate of the World Community for Christian Meditation. View all posts by Andrew

3 responses to “Ten Bulls 1. The Search for the Bull

  • Anne-Marie

    I relate a lot to this and often feel divided within myself, searching for my true self. I’d just like to say however, that “Who am I?” can keep us stuck….”Whose am I?” may help us to breathe a little more freely. When I think that my life is not about me, it opens me up. Thanks so much for all your contributions.

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  • Andrew

    “Whose am I”, yes that helps. Hopefully, as the pictures are posted with their reflections, there will be more help to come. Thanks again Anne-Marie.

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