Contemplation and action are the same: this is compassion without fatigue.
Divine energy is all there is.
There is no observer; attention is now.
The fearless are love being Love in the world.
‘Every Christian is called to be a reincarnation of Christ’[1].
We are all saints, fully revealed and on our way; always beginning.
Together we are the body of Christ: this is community.
The risen Jesus ate fish and so can we[2].
[1] John Main, The Way of Unknowing, 128.
[2] John 21:4-14.
Being is with the Source of all being.
The Source is Abba, the Father of Jesus.
There is no doing, only expression of being.
The point of no return no longer exists.
The Spirit shows the Son, the Son shows the Father.
All are the divine love-life.
Look back to the beginning: this love-life has always been with you.
The fulfilment of the heart’s longing is beyond the distinction of Creator and creature.
I is no longer, duality is resolved in Christ[1].
This is undifferentiated consciousness; consciousness cannot see itself.
It is our ‘original face before we were born[2].’
I dies to rise in Christ consciousness.
‘Father, into your hands I commit my spirit[3].’
The mantra falls away, unnoticed.
Silence.
[1] Galatians 2:19-20
[2] William Johnston, Christian Zen (New York: Harper Colophon, 1971), 53
[3] Luke 23:46
The bull has vanished!
Ego has returned to the heart.
The mind is without thought.
This is apatheia: passion is ordered, wounds are healed. Though there are scars, ego remains forgotten.
Nothing is taken personally.
There is abiding calm.
The grace (the gift) of the Holy Spirit, has brought us this far.
The herdsman looks with eyes closed; looks with heart longing, not ego desire.
We are always beginning, and here the herdsman begins again.
In longing the heart hears our teacher: Jesus – human consciousness divine.
Listen to him (without thought): ma-ra-na-tha.
We are with him alone and together.
Let your heart open.
Longing can become consolation.
The rope is let go; the bull is now faithful.
The bull has been loved into gentleness.
Human nature is no longer hidden in struggle.
Herdsman and bull walk as one.
The melody of the heart draws them home: the herdsman plays and guides, the bull listens and carries.
Still the bull is the bull: strong, energetic. This energy is now for life – not resisting what is good.
The mantra is in the heart: keep listening to its song until it is no longer needed (you will not know when).
Isolation has passed: the bull is secure alone and together. Kindness happens without thought.
All this is the fruit of faithful discipleship: “I have come that you may have life, and have it to the full” (John 10:10)
And the herdsman keeps feeling the bull, sensing the powerful movement underneath, hearing the snort. While this remains, still there is reaction, desire, however slight.
If we are to be here and now fully at home, these too must be graced away.
Experience the bull (without thought). It is now safe to go deep.
The bull wants to carry us home.
We must continue on in this intimate awareness of the bull.
Taming is done gently, firmly, consistently.
Never give up on the bull! Hold the rope!
This is how we keep growing in (thoughtless) awareness. Grace is in the struggle.
In time, the bull starts to follow the herdsman. As awareness persists, respect grows.
The herdsman no longer looks at the bull as he holds the rope.
Self-consciousness and consciousness are uniting.
Still the bull can struggle: stubbornness, wildness, deception.
Yet slowly, very slowly, the bull grows humble.
Say your mantra in the struggle. Keep going, persevere, remain faithful: one foot.
Practice good works. Attend to daily kindnesses: the other foot.
The bull is close, and now we see its scars: some new, some deep, some old. Long has the bull struggled.
Compassion grows. We see the bull with Divine eyes.
In time we see that the bull has emerged from the heart, the centre of consciousness.
The bellowing, the snorting eases. The bull is knowing true love.
We are losing egoism and finding heart.
As awareness, we love the bull.
‘For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake will find it.’ (Mathew 16:25)
The energy that is this flaring, simply be aware of it (without thought) as it erupts: this is catching the bull.
See how the herdsman holds the rope: this is being aware.
As this awareness grows so does our hold on the rope.
Our hold helps us to remain stable as the bull stampedes – again and again.
If it all becomes too much and we let the rope go – this is ok. All will be well.
Be still as you search and you will experience the bull again – without fail.
In all this, learning to stay with the first experience rather than splitting into thought and forgetting, we discover that not only is the bull wild: our bull is also wily and deceptive.
The bull always sleeps with one eye open.
This is why we say the mantra from beginning to end.
As we attend to the mantra we experience the bull without focusing on the bull: a vital work! Here we become aware (without thought) of its subtleties and tricks.
More and more tricks: pleasure for pleasure’s sake, showing off, distraction and hiding.
For the bull it is all about survival.
Again and again we are dragged off. Keep a hold of the rope; find the rope, again and again!
Saying the mantra is learning to hold the rope.
In community our bulls herd together. They buck and rage, distract and hide.
Together we hold the rope in meditation and daily life.
In time it all becomes a kind of play: serious not solemn. It’s ok to smile, shake your head, and begin again.
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